Reflection

I have joined True yoga for abt 5 mths now.

I go for hot yoga class every week, maintaining at least 2 classes per week policy. So far so good. This week, i crazily went 5 classes. HAHAHA. I am actually v hard core. I can attend a 7am class and then attend a 715pm class on the very same day, just to attend my favourite instructor class. LOL.

I really enjoy the calm and namaste each lesson brings. And i desperately need that. I need to keep myself calm and relax. I am so tensed at work, sometimes i think its really driving me crazy. Yoga makes me chill a little, to just concentrate on my  poses and hope i did it right today. Yoga make me not think of anything except to focus, aim higher or to balance. To exhale and stretch further. Yes, I did it today. If i didnt, there is always next lesson to try it again.

Yoga is a lifelong process. You dont achieve flexibility overnight. The only way is to take baby steps, one step at a time. Consistency is the key. Be determined. Be disciplined. Go for your classes regularly. They come to you one day.

In 5 mths, you see how you hatch from an egg into a caterpillar. Probably still far to reach a pupa stage. But my point is, we have all grown up now. (OMG. Did i just type that? I think i work too much. HAHAHAH. LOL.)

From bent knees, I have locked knees.

From falling apart, I have balancing.

From distraction, I have discipline and focus (or so i hope.)

From giving up, I tried my best.

Because of my operation since 9, I have a mutated left elbow. Its not quite the same as other ppl. My elbow looks just the same as everyone else from appearance. But there is actually a subtle difference. And sometimes, that difference kills me. I just dont rotate my elbow the same as everyone else.

But no, that is not an excuse or obstacle. One day, I will be able to do the same yoga pose just like everyone else. No condition is too difficult. Veron, have faith. Its ok. I can do this. -repeat mode ON-

In 5 mths. I managed to do a right side plank with both thighs away from the ground. Of course w v shaky hands.

In 5 mths, I managed to do a left side plank with my left knee on the floor and right thigh away from the ground. 

I finally managed to do that last week. And i almost teared. Once, I asked XX the technique to do it cause i cant do it, he dismissed it as, "your elbow is not the same as others. Its just impossible for you to do it. Dont further injured it anymore." T.T

Truth is, whenever ppl do a left plank, i took a rest. Cause my elbow is just too painful. I did my left side plank with both thighs on the floor and died every single lesson. -Bong- Rest w child's pose.

But then again, there are alot of amazing stories how yoga managed to alter one's posture and condition. Although i know mine cant be altered much, since i cant remove the many mini bones in between my elbow joint. But perhaps one day, i may just be able to do the pose with ease, just like others.

And today, even though its just my right thigh away from the ground while doing my left plank, I am overjoyed. Looks simple to some, it really means alot to me.

I swear to do side plank in a hot yoga room after many many poses, its a metal discipline to play against the odds. Defy gravity. Do it. 

And yesterday is a testimony of how we changed. 

I see how Valerie did her side plank with both thighs up. Thats v amazing by how much she improved.

I see how MH did her side warrior with knees towards her ankle.

If its 5 mths earlier, we would gave up after 8 poses for ytd's nightmare class. Cause they are just impossible to do. Our heads spin. Our thighs sore. Its literally nightmare. I cant rmb the last time i sweat soooooooooooooooooo much, its insane. Although i was literally wtf-ing all the way cause the series of poses is just !@#$%^&*())(*&^%$#@. LOL. HAHAHA.

But you know sth, we have all come a long way. Even though its just 5 mths. (:

We all miss you so much lover. Esp mummy.

Valerie says, "today feels just like the good old days! even though I do go for yoga alone nowadays, nothing beats the feeling of having ur best buddies in the room sweating it out tog and laughing at the odd postures and winking at one another to encourage :) really happy Friday! #mintyisblogging like Veron"

(don kill me for quoting. HAHAHAHAHAHA)

So very true. Friends give you encouragements in times of needs. Strangers dont.
I miss my darling partners at yoga badly. (photoshop buddy's face somewhere)

And do you know sth, i finally understand what they mean by "square your hips" after 5 mths. Sometimes i can kick v high, but my hips goes unbalanced. I finally uds the meaning of square your hips ytd.

HAHAHAHA. Mirror is really helpful. 

I am still learning. Each lesson, i learn sth. What did you learn today?